i thought the ; getting the rose for grams
was so sweet.. it was fun owning that 14yo
in 4mins.. bet she's left all crying and sobbed out.

i will wait for your call at 4am.

xx

1.29am.

is rather irritated by the fact that you doing
your shit.. telling the whole world about your
emotions blah blah blah going frek lick'in like a dog
is affecting more so in her than me.
so just piss off. and u are poison.

digressing. aaron harvard jov and dan
is in my room now crashing.
and for what its worth
im sleeping on my own bed. : )

this is a cool pic from the dutch 29er guys
sam frank and jason hogendoorn.

the helm is 184cm
crew is 180cm

sherm wonders if its about the hot bod.
or the five figure sum of money
or about being tall and rich.
leading a lush life.

ive found the reason for me
to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you.

finally an update

40 days in europe went alright, wasnt as long as what i thought.
in fact i liked it there more than sg, because firstly the weather here
sucks, 67% humidity like wtf?. and sg is just a stress hole.
we had all sorts of weather there, from 13-24 degrees in germany
to 12-28 degrees in denmark.. when i went back to germany
to pack e container with my special units, aka shit hole , the temp
fell to 8-9 degrees. i like!!. but obviously not when im sailing

anw. kiel week in germany went quite alright because the olympic
guys were there too and there was like 24 of us there?.. the food was
great there with crepes and the ice cream shop.. qualifying race went
alright for us, we were third into the finals. the funny thing was that
during qualifying , we were in the second fleet and so .. our first
races for 2 days were starting at 3pm?. so stine and i were kept ashore
by yourselves, and we spent like 30euros on food. eating the ice cream
and crepes and every other junk u could find there.

we had to wear pink bibs out to sea for being third place, it was
so fucking gay i tell u, when we were launching, everyone was
staring at us.. Pei ming and roy were laughing at us but soon
they found themselves in the same position during olympic
week when they were 3rd after the first day! muahah. karma!.

trainings' at kiel were really fun because it was a nice place to sail
with many other classes of boats, we did trng with the 470s too.
after kiel week , we stayed on to train for another 2 days and
caught glimpses of the 49er course. and we saw 2 friends
sailing them, they were sailing 29er at last years youth worlds..
we spent many days cooking at home in germany under the guidance
of suzzie, it was fun learning how to cook..

after 16 days in germany we drove up to denmark, aarhus.
we checked into the nice 4 star hotel. we had a shower with
adjustable temperature like 30-31 degree kinda.. 30'' LCD tv
in my room and it was very comfortable!.except that we had
the hotel complaining about us to ISAF for something we did.
haha, it wasn't that hardcore, they were just being asses.

standard of living in denmark was high, copenhagen is the 2nd city
in the world for highest cost of living.. i bought an ice mocha
and it cost me 13.5 bucks sg $.. it was crazy.. i love Scandinavian
summers because everyone just gets out and dine in town.
the weather is nice when the high pressures come its like 20ish degrees
with sunlight full day. its a very chilled out place unlike back here.

we spend 4 days trn before the event, the first day i wore just tights
and lycra top to sail, i frozed out so badly, i had to like take my lycra
top off to try to dry it!.then stine gave me his spray top which helped alot.
the 3 other days were spent training with the aussie, danish, swedish ppl.
the winds were lik 2-14 knots. very nice conditions to sail.

competiton started with 16-19knots. gusting 21 on the first day..
haha ive not seen waves so big before, on the downwind its always
full trap with my leg in the footstrap and holding stine for support
when i slip. and each time stine says gybe, im like '' eh commit commit''
haha as in commit into the gybe, dont puss out of it. even though
we didnt go as well , we really enjoyed the racing alot, its always about
learning and having fun, which was something we did alot!. even when 18knots
came on the other days, we still gave everything we had.
when the wind was 9-11knots on the last race, argentina and us
raped the fleet just by pure boat speed. i must admit, it wasnt too
good a feeling to see GBR 29er guys lift that trophy. cos i know
that if the winds were different, we stood a good chance with
the preparations we had. o well, this is sports. someone has to win/lose

we can only leave this competition knowing we gave it all, whats
impt now is to bounce back and give them the shit that will kill them
next year. i got 11 months now of hard work to do. this time i'm
absolutely leaving no chance. even if the winds are 3-30knots,
i am gonna stand a chance..

okay, my hands are hurting from this long post.

'' you are the love of my life''.

derek.

was standing then came over and asked if with
bottle. took it put it mouth and lid off . got a and thanks.

thats what i needed.

this huge squall that came through. 23-25knots?

sherm is fighting jet lag. not very successful and its
4.05am now sg time. i will try to blog abt the trip soon
but right now, i need some time away to rest.

40 days of work is taking a toll on my body
and is showing effects.

i have been in europe for 33days.
i got 4 races left..

pls stay sweet minded.

weymouth,kingston,arhus.

''today's the day that no other day will be like today.''

i wanna say something to you,
but hell i dont even know how to start
even if i figure it out, it just seems so out of the world.

race 1 16knots
race 2 18knots
race 3 ( canceled due to storms and 20ish knots wind).

i still cant say it.

21/2...

it starts tmr.
its gonna be great fun.

i trained on it for 5 months
while sailing 420 part time.

i did aussie nats, ( light and fun )
worlds ( wild and crazy )
dutch youth ( i got cut there )
kiel week ( light/medium and exciting ).

this lead up, i didnt have last year.

it comes down to tmr.
tmr
tmr
tmr 3 races.

one race at a time
postive
go hard.

i love this.

I"M AMPED.

this joyful wonderful feeling.

its funny how we were all saying 2 days ago
that it'll be a light wind regatta , as in even
the weather maps were showing light airs.

and its even funnier when ytd i checked it again
and what i got was, 20-25knots.. the isobars are
so close together..

and the funniest part is.. guess who i saw ytd
when i opened my door.

and the hilarious part is i made a new acquaintance.
he is the laser full rig sailor.. he taught me some
shit last night.. and i wanna live the ''american dream''.

groundwork
groundwork.
satisfaction.

this is the best part.

this is the part where she has to choose
either the doc or the vet..

greys season 3 epi 2.

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

denmark.

this is my 4-star room,
i'm not sure if thats a plasma
or LCD tv.. but it sure is cool.


this is my 4-star hotel,



this is denmark, can u see the ice blocks floating
on the water?. land temp- 26 degrees
sea temp?. so darn bloody cold.
i wore just new balance tights and lycra
top to sail ytd, it was soo cold. unbearable kind.
we nose dived ytd. it was fucken funny!.

stine ; we confirm wont nose dive.

me ; yea confirm wont, since u are 65kg.

then we did a nose dive, i fell to the front of the boat
but the bow was still up. we did a slow capsize/nose dive
because the boat got flooded from the front.

while trying to get the boat up.

me ; eh i thought u say confirm wont?

stine ; i thought so too.

me ; muahah knn!.

then i couldnt take the cold already
so suzzie send us back. it was meant to be
a short one hr trng but we chong sua and did
2.5 hrs..

more updates soon, if i can

sometimes we force ourselves to tell the truth.
we take our chances despite the odds
we take it so that theres at least some
chance of making things better. or for a better
future.


i think i got my fingers burnt. not literally.
i think im a goner.

i mean... i think i gave it my all
and it wasnt too shabby..