Before 2011 hits, i just wanna remind myself of the mistake(s) i made in 2010.

& there's no erasing it.

Come on Jan.

i don't listen to sad songs because i get affected. i like watching movies alone because i feel for it. i take morning rides because it gives me a sense of peace and that i am in control. i drink because i like to stay in a trance, i run up the hill because it gives me lactic and makes me dizzy and thats also another trance. i dont like to sit here waiting because i know i have 10 years left. i fucking love how i started this morning. Got a an emergency phone call about the aviation industry and i had to do it, i had 30 mins to research on an industry i'm clueless about but i did it. I got the job done. I like being placed in pressure situations, i like to make decisions on the ball. I like positive people because i can feed on their energy. I don't like people complaining even though i do that quite often on my part. I like it how i'm setting my goals for the next ten years based on how i see things developing right now. I would love to one day sleep at 10pm, wake up at 6am and take a morning ride to the beach then kayak out to sea with fking chilled watermelon juice in my favourite water bottle. One day, i might make it (big) or i might not, but i will always remember that this is the year when i was most confused. When shit really didn't happen in my way and i spent the first 11 months of the year clueless and making stupid decisions and getting myself into messed up situations. On the contrary this has been the most successful year for me, i won every single competition that i sailed in and i managed to get myself a uni spot. I was in dumpers and you literally.... NO.... FKING LITERALLY blew me off my feet. No one does that. Nobody. & i don't come up with a strategic plan just for things like that, i dont, ever. But i did and it went well. Then there's you both, my fav ladies in my life. I come home all foolish and not one bit like your son/grandson, it's always the first sentence that sets me right up for everything back home. I love you both and i know money does not equate to happiness but when we board that plane in march, sweet times, sweet times baby awaits us. I will not be spending much time at home till i enlist for army but i know we will still have that goal in mind when we are faced with doubt. 9 more years momsa and grams.

As long as this goes on, i will continue to find my escape. Day by day, i will get it right. Sit tight buddy, it's gonna be one helluva ride.

48 A&B

Life has a plan for me, i got lucky. 5 years to make it work, 8 years to make the final count. Cause i wanna be a VC and i think i can be. This is the most challenging task at hand & i'm gnna break it down into pieces. Trust me, it will all work out smoothly. BEST EVER WEEK IN MY LIFE.

48 (E&C)

Woke up this morning feeling like something is missing. After breakkie the realisation hits, and then you can confirm yep something is missing. It's a case of managing it now.

48.(key momento)

If i told you 11 months ago, i already knew things would settle up like that, would you believe? That i would end on a perfect winning season. Foreeeeword

50 (VC)

I'll be lingering about when time hits. Unlike the last time, this time i will make it count. I won't think 5 years or a year ahead, i get through the daily 24hours feeling satisfied and i focus on the next job. Every small right will bring me closer & this ocean of greatness awaits us.

Because i can, i will.

Day 53

alec anderson, tim fox, juree, polska, steven burnham, natalie moore, raggie. I would give up anything for those days.