trng today was a waste of time, the wind didnt do any good.
dinner was really good, thanks murphy!.

should i read it?.. i got this book from chun.
dad came into my room, read a few pages and his eyes got red.
mum came into my room 20mins later, did the exact same.

its very touching

bravery
courage.
love.

tonight is the night

( im suppose to post something else here
but i cant do it. cause its too sensitive, i cant take it )

anyway. the past 2 hours have been great.
every though its mighty small,
but the impact has left me with......

just a ordinary 15 min conversation.
thanks mum, the view from here is much better now.

1 hour of core tmr, woohoo!

still is.

encouraging to know.
despite all the injuries
my fitness isnt very low.

today's gym killed me though,
i cant hardly move my right wrist
cause the forearm is too tight
which is linked to the wrist. like durh?

36 chin ups
120 push ups
60 forehand pulls each hand.
40 tricep dips.
sounds like the spartan program aye

not a very tough program but
still is nice to know that i survived.

need to get some stretching done.
tmro is another day.

lies,bullshit,taboo,love,miserable,life,live,it,x.

i want u to know firstly this world isnt fair.
i want you to think about what has happened in your life
all the downs and highs, the fun and fcuked up parts

think about the lowest phase of your life ever,
the recent one and the longest ever that has now sunken in your heart.

now im gonna give u 5 mins to break down,
cry or do whatever u want with it.
use it well. chances dont come by often.

u ready?.


now start afresh
this sheet of paper is blank.

paint it/ write on it.
indulge in whatever
enjoy this world
love the right people
do the inhumanly possible.
welcome challenges
accept failures.

catch no balls'

ah huh. so its like that right?.
the moment i hit a rough week in trng
i start to fall ill only to start again and again and again.

its the fourth time in 4 months
not very comforting to go through esp
when i'm on weight gain program
which i'm currently miserably making no progress in.

now htf did i fall ill?.

1. sleep an arvg of 7h 45-50mins a day ( higher than normal avg by 2 hrs )
2. drank shit loads of water and a cup b4 i sleep ( more than usual )
3. cracked my lazy bum to pop vitamins every morning.

zomg
omg
omfg.
this cant be happening.

Went for accupunture today at ssc, 9needles for 30mins
shoulder shouldnt be coming out, apparently ive got
some intense shit going about in my shoulders so the support
there is mega fine, no worries. if it pops imma kill Cormac-donalds.
lower back is just ultra tight, i need to go for more physios and stretch.
forearm is super tight that explains why my wrist has restrictions in movement.

i'm going to get really busy next week,
dont know htf things are gonna work out.

digressing here'. i just found out dadandmum
were in a relationship for 11 years before marriage
that in our modern world now, is unbelievable.
and the classic is that mum was only 16 when it all started.
i think i should be a filial son and appreciate them even more.
time is running out and i might lose 2 family members anytime.

the pics are totally random,
even though i got more hair than the nigger.
i didnt say anything,

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

oh mario oh mario.

930 not lovely

srsly ive had enough.

im stuffing fried mother rice into my mouth now
and im gonna down a packet of ensure plus inta my mouth after.
im going to gym in 8 hrs time.
i need to swallow this amino acid pill after my meal later.
i need to drink creatine when i wake up tmr
then i need to drink protein shake after gym.
i need to drink another packet of ensure plus after breakfast.

this isnt april's fool joke
this is reality , everyday life.

im damned.