today i tried. i will try harder than before. fuck em critics. thanks mum and dad for bringing me up, thank you qing for being part of this journey. it'll be good if i had the support from you guys but if i cant get it, your blessings will also do just fine.

today is the start of the next chapter in my book. its the start of independence, its the first for me. to be able to hold the decisions i have to make for the rest of my life. to be accountable and responsible for that. to give qing a good life. dad and mum, to give you both comfort, to give you both assurance that all you did to bring me up for the past 18years didnt go down the drain.

today i hold my own fate. and i will decide my destiny. my friends can judge me but i know i wasnt born to do mainstream. i'm not one that will study my ass off to get a degree, come out of army and sit in a 9-5 job earning a salary for the rest of my life.

there's just something about growing up, you'll realise that it isnt anywhere like what you imagine the world to be when you were alot younger. when i look into a kid's eye, i envy them. but its saddening as well because i think they too, will realise what a world this is what they grow up. who am i to say? obviously its purely my assumption. but i know one day i will snap, even the best breakfast in the world wont save me nor the feeling of being able to hold the power of trading 600milion a year (just met someone today) as well. id dig deeper, and maybe only to realise that my cuppa is just lying on the beach listening to cafe del mar and smoking pot all day long.

2 weeks,

woke up at 430am this morning, joined AQ, aaron and joel for a bike ride till 930am. we managed to cover 70km from woodlands- east coast park and back to woodlands. i've just found a faster way to qing's house, cycling is so much faster than the bus ride. took us only 1hour 15mins to get there. left school at 11am to qing's place to look after her cause she's down with food poisoning still. hope that crap gets outta her soon.

its gonna be a darn tough 2 weeks now leading into the exams. ive got psychology essay still yet to be completed plus revision stuff. cool yew. anw i'm saving up for something big with my mum. hopefully we'll get it by next january!.

gnna listen david guetta to start my day off tmr.

miss u alrdy qing.

i go nowhere warm

i dont care what you guys do, if your relationship is fucked then so be it. dont drag her into it,
she doesnt deserve to be the middle man and get all the sarcasm. im warning you. u hurt her, u get it.

psychology lecture tmr morning then back home for lunch with Qing. shall get an afternoon nap before heading back to sch for another night lesson. dont judge me, i love sleeping with my gf

I go nowhere high
Go nowhere warm
Until you’re by my side
Your hand in mine
And I’ve always known
You’re like a feather
You go where wind and fire melt together

edit.

dont mess with people like me. you dont know the place where i came from, what i've done, what i went through. what i'm prepared to do if need be. i will go to the ends of the world for this girl. you dont have the slightest idea of how sweet this is right now/ really, u dont know who you are dealing with. not guys like us, never with guys like us. we bring u down all the way.

welcome to da world. bjorn ruben wesley don lets be on standby.

more shit stuff happening. im disgusted by you people. maybe this world isnt the same
as what i grew up thinking it will be. a world build up on trust. fuck yeh whatever, dig this shit

its been a while since i blogged. life has been getting real busy but its still quite a challenge to manage all my time around nicely,
the past 3 weeks were great!. the sailors came over to surprise me the day before my 18th bd and it i really got a shock when i got home that night thinking that grandma injured her leg only to realise that the 8-10 of them were in my room. thanks to everyone and esp denise for planning that.

then we went on to timbre 2 saturdays ago, it was nice having everyone there and all 27 of them made it on that night! that also happened to be the first time i signed a bill. but the jaggerbombs were ridiculously expensive like 8 shots/glasses for 270bucks, overall the food there was good, we ordered something like 15 pizzas i think. headed down to sahara after everyone couldnt decide on where to go which was epic fail cos the guys were so engross in their soccer at sahara! sorry jane&claire but i guess boys will be boys haha. went into zirca rebel and luna after that, by that time i was prolly damn red im guessing, rebel was good plus the music. It was really funny watching ghandi tho, he got owned by some fella when they challenged their lightstick dancing. got out of there at 4ish, we had macs till 5 and qing and i got into a cab and went back to hilton. legs were so tired and i woke up sore having to walk to ion for breakfast.

last weekend we had the class dinner at seoul garden which was quite fail once more since everyone's not in town but it was nice seeing those faces and i really miss 4A/5A, though we didnt really study much cos of through train and stuff but the class dynamics were soo good. im in charge of organising this year's class chalet but its damn hellva job im saying;. cos you have people like mylene ong going berlin-sweden-russia in november and shuttlers going world youth and everyone else is sooo darn busy.

last night i had the pleasure of having dinner with Qing! & chloe, omg chloe is in a league of her own i tell you. she's damn funny and hyper! Ok and now i have to finish up my lunch and read the psychology notes before starting on the essay. bowling and badminton later?.

Oh yes! i've just signed up for the national mountain bike championship in 2 weeks time and Swissotel vertical marathon! im heaps excited about this 2 competitions. ( anyone knows the terrain at bukit timah nature reserve?) cos im not going there to test the conditions till the competition itself- something quite dangerous.

& also, wish me luck im sending my application to oakley for a sponsorship soon, tho im thinking the chances of as slim.
and im also gonna feature in thomson medical hospital's calender for next year cos im their BABY for the month of sept!.

Qing i miss you already and October's gnna be great! x