okay at least there is internet.

its 8 degrees or so i think?
im rooming with ghandi and our room
has got a nice view of the sea, white caps now.ffff.

my bed is actually a artificial tanning machine, its scary
but fucking funny.. its really like the things u see at the tanning centres.

maybe i might try it soon.. the flight here wasnt too bad
but we had to repack the trailer cause the wheels on the first one was f-ed.
imagine packing for 3 hrs and lovely we started to drive to holland
then within 5 mins, the wheel started screwy. so we had to unpack and pack
everything on another trailer.

im wearing a thermal then fleece then another fleece then a musto jacket.

just another 8 days to go..

1.At what age do you wish to marry?
......
2.How many children do you want?
baby bonus doesnt subsidize a shit.

3.What I want the most now?
to get killed in holland, learn the tough way

4.What do you want to be when you grow up?
honestly i dont know,

5.If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
to let my fortnightly dream come true

6.What are you afraid to lose now?
my thumbdrive filled with english newspaper articles. WETSUITS!!

7.Do you believe in being in love forever?
doubt it.

8.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
if only mama allowed me to...

9.How strong(in your heart) can you be?
i act soft but ima hardy as it could get.

10.What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
dota
corona
psp

11.Which type of person do you hate most?
i dont hate anyone, usually im just too lazy to bother

12.Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
no.. esp those ho for shos

13.Have you been betrayed by any of your friend?
nah.. no way that would happen, not.

14.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
ipod then my bike.

15.Roughly, how much of an age gap would you want to have between you and your spouse?
i'd date your mama too. since everyone says i look fking old

16.What do you want your friend to be like?
not bother me, ive got social issues.

17.What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
someone u will not turn to.

18.If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
this quiz is gay.

19.If you're feeling low one day, who/what will you go to?
my bike.

20.Who will you trust more, your friends or your kins?
fuck this quiz its so gay.

im gonna blog later. cause packing is such a fucking chore.

going gv with the family later, superhero better be worth paying 10b to watch.

sleepyness VS red bull and starbucks.

good morning ;-

okay i just got home from clarke quay.
dom's gig was good, but the heavy metal
in between kinda killed me. The loudness of music
was intolerable, supper at indian bk was good. filling.

followed by corona,breezer and crusier( spelling? ).

time check 3.29am.
gotta hit the bed.


snores

my bro is going to japan, anyone needs lodging?

malcom here is seen hoisting the mini opti sail
fucking funny can.

im emo i poke myself

just a quick one.

things to be done.

1. get sailing gear settled.

2. settle payment

3. do english newspaper.

4. party.

5. splurge, with my own money.

6. need my Bs, got my Cs. finding my Ds.


i aint your freefrag .
you have your violent meltdowns,
your monthly breakdowns

ive got mine too.

trng today was a waste of time, the wind didnt do any good.
dinner was really good, thanks murphy!.

should i read it?.. i got this book from chun.
dad came into my room, read a few pages and his eyes got red.
mum came into my room 20mins later, did the exact same.

its very touching

bravery
courage.
love.

tonight is the night

( im suppose to post something else here
but i cant do it. cause its too sensitive, i cant take it )

anyway. the past 2 hours have been great.
every though its mighty small,
but the impact has left me with......

just a ordinary 15 min conversation.
thanks mum, the view from here is much better now.

1 hour of core tmr, woohoo!

still is.

encouraging to know.
despite all the injuries
my fitness isnt very low.

today's gym killed me though,
i cant hardly move my right wrist
cause the forearm is too tight
which is linked to the wrist. like durh?

36 chin ups
120 push ups
60 forehand pulls each hand.
40 tricep dips.
sounds like the spartan program aye

not a very tough program but
still is nice to know that i survived.

need to get some stretching done.
tmro is another day.

lies,bullshit,taboo,love,miserable,life,live,it,x.

i want u to know firstly this world isnt fair.
i want you to think about what has happened in your life
all the downs and highs, the fun and fcuked up parts

think about the lowest phase of your life ever,
the recent one and the longest ever that has now sunken in your heart.

now im gonna give u 5 mins to break down,
cry or do whatever u want with it.
use it well. chances dont come by often.

u ready?.


now start afresh
this sheet of paper is blank.

paint it/ write on it.
indulge in whatever
enjoy this world
love the right people
do the inhumanly possible.
welcome challenges
accept failures.

catch no balls'

ah huh. so its like that right?.
the moment i hit a rough week in trng
i start to fall ill only to start again and again and again.

its the fourth time in 4 months
not very comforting to go through esp
when i'm on weight gain program
which i'm currently miserably making no progress in.

now htf did i fall ill?.

1. sleep an arvg of 7h 45-50mins a day ( higher than normal avg by 2 hrs )
2. drank shit loads of water and a cup b4 i sleep ( more than usual )
3. cracked my lazy bum to pop vitamins every morning.

zomg
omg
omfg.
this cant be happening.

Went for accupunture today at ssc, 9needles for 30mins
shoulder shouldnt be coming out, apparently ive got
some intense shit going about in my shoulders so the support
there is mega fine, no worries. if it pops imma kill Cormac-donalds.
lower back is just ultra tight, i need to go for more physios and stretch.
forearm is super tight that explains why my wrist has restrictions in movement.

i'm going to get really busy next week,
dont know htf things are gonna work out.

digressing here'. i just found out dadandmum
were in a relationship for 11 years before marriage
that in our modern world now, is unbelievable.
and the classic is that mum was only 16 when it all started.
i think i should be a filial son and appreciate them even more.
time is running out and i might lose 2 family members anytime.

the pics are totally random,
even though i got more hair than the nigger.
i didnt say anything,

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

oh mario oh mario.

930 not lovely

srsly ive had enough.

im stuffing fried mother rice into my mouth now
and im gonna down a packet of ensure plus inta my mouth after.
im going to gym in 8 hrs time.
i need to swallow this amino acid pill after my meal later.
i need to drink creatine when i wake up tmr
then i need to drink protein shake after gym.
i need to drink another packet of ensure plus after breakfast.

this isnt april's fool joke
this is reality , everyday life.

im damned.