Before 2011 hits, i just wanna remind myself of the mistake(s) i made in 2010.

& there's no erasing it.

Come on Jan.

i don't listen to sad songs because i get affected. i like watching movies alone because i feel for it. i take morning rides because it gives me a sense of peace and that i am in control. i drink because i like to stay in a trance, i run up the hill because it gives me lactic and makes me dizzy and thats also another trance. i dont like to sit here waiting because i know i have 10 years left. i fucking love how i started this morning. Got a an emergency phone call about the aviation industry and i had to do it, i had 30 mins to research on an industry i'm clueless about but i did it. I got the job done. I like being placed in pressure situations, i like to make decisions on the ball. I like positive people because i can feed on their energy. I don't like people complaining even though i do that quite often on my part. I like it how i'm setting my goals for the next ten years based on how i see things developing right now. I would love to one day sleep at 10pm, wake up at 6am and take a morning ride to the beach then kayak out to sea with fking chilled watermelon juice in my favourite water bottle. One day, i might make it (big) or i might not, but i will always remember that this is the year when i was most confused. When shit really didn't happen in my way and i spent the first 11 months of the year clueless and making stupid decisions and getting myself into messed up situations. On the contrary this has been the most successful year for me, i won every single competition that i sailed in and i managed to get myself a uni spot. I was in dumpers and you literally.... NO.... FKING LITERALLY blew me off my feet. No one does that. Nobody. & i don't come up with a strategic plan just for things like that, i dont, ever. But i did and it went well. Then there's you both, my fav ladies in my life. I come home all foolish and not one bit like your son/grandson, it's always the first sentence that sets me right up for everything back home. I love you both and i know money does not equate to happiness but when we board that plane in march, sweet times, sweet times baby awaits us. I will not be spending much time at home till i enlist for army but i know we will still have that goal in mind when we are faced with doubt. 9 more years momsa and grams.

As long as this goes on, i will continue to find my escape. Day by day, i will get it right. Sit tight buddy, it's gonna be one helluva ride.

48 A&B

Life has a plan for me, i got lucky. 5 years to make it work, 8 years to make the final count. Cause i wanna be a VC and i think i can be. This is the most challenging task at hand & i'm gnna break it down into pieces. Trust me, it will all work out smoothly. BEST EVER WEEK IN MY LIFE.

48 (E&C)

Woke up this morning feeling like something is missing. After breakkie the realisation hits, and then you can confirm yep something is missing. It's a case of managing it now.

48.(key momento)

If i told you 11 months ago, i already knew things would settle up like that, would you believe? That i would end on a perfect winning season. Foreeeeword

50 (VC)

I'll be lingering about when time hits. Unlike the last time, this time i will make it count. I won't think 5 years or a year ahead, i get through the daily 24hours feeling satisfied and i focus on the next job. Every small right will bring me closer & this ocean of greatness awaits us.

Because i can, i will.

Day 53

alec anderson, tim fox, juree, polska, steven burnham, natalie moore, raggie. I would give up anything for those days.

:/

Tonight i will learn how to let go, because i've been through it before and thats the least i expect of myself. I dislike watching Draggy korean drama shows, and i will avoid one at all costs. Ytd i had a moment. A moment.

Tmr i will wake up feeling fresh but still aching from my back, but after physio it will go uphill. & i am no stranger to picking myself up after every bad fall. Time Waits For no Man. Remember that. In 3 months time, we will barely be thinking about it.

Pllssss let me get into UniS
:/

God, it actually hurts.

you came here, did what u had to and went away. i sat here, thinking of the mistakes i made, & as much as i like to grow out of it. i cant. 7hours in the library is making me cranky. 2 more days. just 2 more.

i'm cold and thats not for sho.

& thats how i stay on top.

Respect.

i love One by swedish house mafia, & you listen to One(Congorock) by SHM. I like you. cos you ar33 hardcore.

last post. forever.

2 more days before i pull the plug on this blog. i still can't manage it. i can't. & like what my best budd said, i have never managed to get it over and done with. thats half my life. are u kidding? thats retarded. i need to clean my life up and get my act together.

That starts now.

just got home. time check 1215am.

gonna finish my supper now and have a sleep in for tmr.

Gotta wake up at 630am for a gym session. yeh thats my sleep in.

anything more than 4hrs of sleep is a sleep in.

here's how it works.

gym,internship,meetings,project,family life,social life,training,eating double meals for weight gain,media shizz, waking up at 4am to get some calories in the body. i have 24 hours a day. & i do agree that 24 hours in a day is enough. but that means i end like sleeping 3-4hours.

i dont mind. i can take it.


moral of the story: if i am not considered a priority in your list, dont expect yourself to be in mine. bcos the realization that i wont be there anymore will hit you. and its forever.

havent been posting lately and the counter has been shooting still. i wonder who views my blog and my fb. uh huh i know. thanks to IP tracker.

shortz one

-i think since i lost that one. i never did go into something thinking i'll get much out of it.

- i did take time to think about it all. but nothing could convince me'

managed to find a sweet spot on sunday. all it took was for the 6 six of us and one rash decision ha ha. its quite amazing the amount of damage you can do to your body within 24hours.

i need another trip in aug when i'm back from isarel before i have to commence on the internship and well.. attempt to finish 3 assignments and 2 big ass projects. not to mention my other commitments.

next one with more planning and just a little more budget.

Ps:thk you kenny sia for all the inspiration

just got back from germany. kiel boat trials this weekend. ive got an exam next week. pictures are up on fb. not alot tho.

gdnight.

ps: landed at 330pm, attended class at 730pm. i.am.quite.tired.

in germany.races canceled.5hour wait.tired.restless.alcohol slush.sausages.ice cream. not the best way!

digressing. when im back in sg. i wanna catch up with the o'l mates. so looking forward to meeting the boys.

15 in a row

If you don't know what happened, keep your comments to yourself. At least I am not in debt nor gotten into trouble for running into unauthorised places.

i dont have the good/(mis)fortunate of endless cash flow in my piggy bank or having someone else fund my education.
i'm paying for my two years at AUT now and i'm trying to figure out where to find $ to fund my third year in uni if i ever get a place. urgh. i still need 35k. hmm 3 years to source that out.

& yes. Germany and Israel for the sommer

i dare to sail in 30knots on a 29er.
i dare to stand in front of TSL and do a presentation
i dare to voice out my thoughts on certain issues
i dare to stand up for my mates


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manage to track hedkandi in my playlist down

started my monday off badly. but lets see what i can get out of this week. for now, i've got 30mins for my book. thurs night out. cant wait. i hope the euroo pounds and aussie dollar drops more.

paris london LA chicago tokyo baghdad new york cape town amsterdam Monaco

had dinner at Barossa yesterday after the container packing which left my nose running because of the dust. Been feeling ill since friday, last resort was to use bier to heal it. Hmm i actually do feel better right now. gym at 630am tmr zzz

digressing, i just watched a clip of a top 20 470 pair sailing upwind. like seriously... the crew is doing shitzz with himself only half trapeze in 25knots and his back bent -not extending all th way. is this how u finish top 20 in a world event? Some of us work to get where we are, some of us have it all too easy. right, reminds me of the ying-yang/balance theory.

boils down to the question; are we all only as good as what we are born to be? do you know that Vo2Max is actually very dependent on genetics and even training yourself to gain a higher fitness level is only that significant? That actually means in sports that are all if not highly focused on Cardiorespiratory fitness (CRF), you can have a champion created from the genes of that parent. Or.... you're just a loser working arses and obviously not at a very good receiving end. Are we only as good or have that ''certain'' potential because of physique?

& this is what i learnt in school today. correlation of bench press and 2.4km using excel. sem 4 seems to be the toughest of the lot, quite intense in class nowadays. steam. cap it off with getting 2 raders from oakleys (cant be a bad week can it?)

i finally got to see my girl after a week, she lost weight. i should start feeding my strawberry shortcake with more junk food. tmr i will get my 550D and i'm excited.

the haze is killing me. plus the weather. im not typing.properly am i?.

I love you, thats why

Do you remember the nights
We'd stay up just laughing
Smiling for hours
At anything
Remember the nights
We drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Like it's all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

this is my dream team

good ol' days like that get me through darkness days. i.wont.ever.forget.

those were the days i had fun. the ''fun'' i get these days are either being so sloshed i cant rmb what happened the day before or just planning for e epic trip. where is my grant s s c???????!!! 2.1k

why does it always rain on me.

god i need more than 24 hours a day. too many expectations to fulfill too many responsibilities and roles to play. i finished my exams ytd and i have hardly any air to breathe.my eyes are always closing.

grandpa if you can see me from your side. give me strength. and i miss you.

i lurvve house music and BVI

Thiings i havta do before i die.(not in order)
1. Go for a real electro concert
2. xperience black/white sensation
3. go thru a month of ibiza sloshy
4. go diving (& use my 30m underwater cam)
5. Killers concert
6. Sail the Caribbean islands
7. own a 32ft yacht and barbieq evrday
8. master a short board and eliminate my fear of great white s
9. shoot pretty photos
10. finish my collection of jack ass movee
11. watch malcom manage SKP in melbourne and crash his place.
12. own a restaurant
13. be a real estate guru
14. S**** W**D ( aha who doesnt?)
15. own a subaru legacy GT
16. get a tattoo
17. get a bike license secretly (fail)
18. sho those ass o's that take my grant how to do the shit
19. sail a sweet skiff fo sho!!!
20. sell ALL my wetsuits
21. party so hard till i collapse in a monitored enviro
22. join team midpoint and tackle mt faber countless of times
23. pay for my parents' fking extravagant holiday
24. to be the best in the world at something
25. Marry my girl (only if she allows me to do 1-24) cos i heard after marriage you spend all the time looking after the 3 kids everday!

f me i'm famous! d. guetta

ok its been 19days since i got back frm that horrible china weather. nothing much has been going cept for the fact i strained my back and so im gnna get it checked tmr. exams are up in 12 days time, its almost the last stretch for me now.

1.I have decided to get a DSLR and im waiting for the correct time to get it/learning more about it as well at the mo. Spells it all well for my travel plans the next few months in europe. Of course hoping the volcano in bloody iceland stops erupting

2.As soon as my exams r done i will take a 1-2 day break at some secluded place. Reason being- Next sem(may) i have 5 night classes, 3 mornings, i have to do my internship at California Fitness, go for training (sailing), do 3-5 times of gym a week, sort my dreamplus meetings, hang out with the folks and chill with my sweetheart. I will barely have time for everything, but i will find a way to complete what i have to do ( THANKS RED BULL for the products!)

3. I will save up so that i can pay for uni be it local or overseas ( if i get 0.1 gpa more)

4. My diploma has a direct transfer to NCAP (national coaching accreditation something....) so yes, thats sickk!

5. within the next months my body will go through changes as i make my final attempt to gain 6-7kgs for sailing. That just means my shoulders will get broader. I will be snacking heaps and drinking alot of those milkshakes. OOh yes.. not forgetting beer as well.

gdnight. time check 3.13am. i have a 19hour day starting at 545am sending mum to the airport

Last night we headed to Gastrobar for Claire's 18th, had trouble finding it but it was a really nice place, got to meet Ivan and Jane as well heaps cool. here's a pic of qing & I waking up from e zouk xperience last night. Only thang was we had to open belvedere and 42 below when i had to drive, got a soft spot for belvedere ( ! ) .

time check - 1305 perfect. Im gnna be headed to starbucks to study while qing's gnna be hanging out with the ladies. We got a concert to attend tonight.

just like how beckham is to qing, she means to me.

she has it gotten right in all the places i want it to be.

1hr mix. i really am in my own trance now. with hanna hansen

had a relatively easy 15hour day. Started off meeting with Gosh! in the morning apart from the 1hour jam, everything went smoothly. Presentation was really refreshing as it was done in a different manner. Collected the 2XU gear and they gave us limited edition bottoms so that's cool. Time check; 11pm.

Just gotta send some emails out and toy with the forex stuff before i can crash. Its not gnna be an easy weekend gotta try fit in some time for my test on monday plus a long night out with the family tmr. Thank you Red Bull !

I lead such a sickk lifestyle. yeww

i love fun. and thats my element.

i miss doing shitz. This is gnna be a tough month but i know i can count on my good days to take me through. Qing just told me she'll be in shanghai for a month for attachment, this is what life is. continuity thru the hard parts. & soon, we'll find a place of our own where we can call it our home. and for the record, i've got 11,000 pics in my com. thats enough good memories to take me to my 80s.

bz 15days ahead. goodness its raining now, finally. perfect way to start off monday.

t simply put it. I hooked up with my best friend 19months ago. that was probably one of the few things i'd ever did right.

running high

last week i passed my driving test and did fairly well for my skin-fold measurement test, so it was a really good week. managed to finish my trng program and into a week's break not b4 i finish the fitness test today.

Tmr's gonna be so sweet plus the family chalet over the weekend, it really is time to take out my belverdere and grey goose. fking sick 5 days ahead.