09 was a good year with you

Christmas wasn't the same without you,
New year wasn't the same without you here,
I miss you so f-ing much, i need you back soon... im going to run towards you at the airport, open your arms wide, i will head butt you so hard.

Just 2 more days of competition and you're done. Good luck ok! 56266 will pwn your ass!! Im screaming and cheering for you back here.

Love you loverboyyy <3

when i am out at sea, i think yeh, this is it. me hanging out of the boat, the wind is 20-25knots and waves. shark infested waters. i get this adrenaline that i cant find anywhere else. i was afraid when i had to jump into the water today to help my teammates, but this feeling i get lets me know that i am alive. Now u know why my dream is to own a 49er and take that boat to the maximum. i thrive when things get hardest. anw guys, merry christmas. its 3am here in aust, tired but feelin good. feeling like tomorrow could be a better day. well it should be, today was a pretty darn hard day to get through esp as it got through. FML

defo walkin on a dream.and its my dream.

it has been a crazy week, been going through lots of 17 hour days. i spent some of my time last week at the extreme40s asia series with the Red Bull team. Thanks once again to Red Bull Singapore for the once in the life time opportunity to go onboard the Red Bull boat and mingle around with the crew. Red Bull has a crew of 4 sailing the boat and they all have got tremendous achievements in sailing, they've got Austrians Roman Hargara and Hans Peter whom won the gold medal at the sydney and athens olympics in the tornado class. Andrew Macpherson from Australia whom won countless titles in f18s and the Sydney to hobart race, lastly the bowman- david from Spain whom also did the Volvo Ocean Race this year and was on team telefonica blue. It was just such a great experience for me especially going through 2 training sessions with them on board and as a 5th man crew during the competition itself.

Mylene and Jf came back from Sea Games last night with lots of medals and they owe qing and i a treat. Actually thinking back now, it has been 2 years since i did a major games for singapore, missing the feeling quite a bit now. hopefully the army get their shitz sorted out soon.

O yeh, at the extreme40s event last week, i met Mark Teo. He is a freelance photographer and that dude's work is sickk!. he's all for extreme and style. i just visited his website and i can safely say that i have not seen photos so beautiful before, least in singapore. He took his 2 DSLR's out to sea, it started pouring heavily and he just wrapped a plastic bag over the cameras and started shooting. All in all, we had at least 15k of camera stuff on the boat, he even refused to put his camera into the waterproof bag we had because he wanted some shots of the Red Bull team sailing in the rain. i hope he got the shots he wanted and the spoiled camera is repaired now, gnna post some pics of what i found on his website. Credits to Mark Teo.

Anw the gf's in Shanghai now, and i finished my last trng session 2 days ago. been just bumming around the house plus gym. i think qing and i got to a stage where we are able to live without each other so thats a good thing, we're becoming more independent as we progress. Qing if u read this wear more clothes, its a fridge there now!.

x missing you

Will you still love me if im fugly?

and of course, all these pictures cost a thousand bucks for you to take them and im giving you for free. so hurry contro c control v!!!

i survived a 19hour day ytd. 2 sessions of sailing (10-5), gym (530-630), 2 hours of cycling before and after dinner (740-9,1030-1115) and 3.5 hours of work( 1130-3am). just gonna keep going, leave everyone in my wake. yewww

walking on a dream,

life has been very different since starting sailing once more last week after a 4 month break, it wasnt as bad as what i thought. training's been good, intense. & i guess that's the joy about sailing, you just dont lose touch no matter how long you're kept away from sailing. We did 3 good sessions last week and we got a short one tomorrow before having a 4 day break which i will be spending much of my time in the gym doing aerobic, and weight training.

Cheryl flew off yesterday for sydney, i just looked up the forecast and its gonna blow 30knots with a cold front coming in tmro, i dont know how she is gonna survive with no wetsuit. hopefully suzzie makes one in time for her. Qing, ghandi and i were rushing between t3-t1 ytd, we had to see her besti and JF off for sea games. good luck to the both of them !. anyway speaking of which, i do miss 07' sea games. it was unbelievably intense sailing wise but the team dynamics and stuff was great. esp the soccer game we had and those lan games in the rooms plus buying air guns. i look forward to another challenge in the coming months spending time on the boat, bike and gym.

i will be away this christmas again (this will be my 4th christmas away from singapore). hopefully i wont be training on christmas day. i cant wait to get on my plan for the next 18 days and see how much work i can finish before i fly out.

HOHO i finally got mum's agreement, this is the start. sherm remember. this is the start. lets get on it.

you supported me since day 1 and there's nothing else i can say to you but thanks for being a part of my life. you're my everything

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buy low.

anw i just experienced my 2nd asthma attack this year. both in a day, went to the doc for the breathing thingy, but i still dont quite feel very well. something isnt right. i hate falling sick, just when i finished a week of tough training plus gym conditioning. i have to start all over again.

Anw some pics up, what i've been doing fitness wise. plus the swissotel vertical marathon last sunday. its gonna be a damn tough month ahead. got some good plans for the next 12 months. plus some forex arbitrage i'll be starting on.

okay its late and i need some sleep. but my asthma med is keeping me up by making my heart beat faster and my fever med is making me drowsy. FML, ( it always happens when i got a fever and asthma! )

FML

if only Benny Benassi were to be Dj-ing at a concert instead of a club tmr.

SATISFACTION

work hard earn money
study well, sail hard
spend more time with the family and girlfriend,
build an empire of fortunate and retire young.
spend more time with the folks and kids. +the beautiful wife.

all that i will ever be in life, is what you guys want me to be. you guys set the boundary on me. and i dont carry a single regret in telling you '' i will prove you guys wrong''.

ellen pompeo...

because life doesnt get any easier. i'm starting to drink redbull again.

when myosin cross bridges are activated, they bind strongly with actin. the myosin head then tilts toward the arm of the bridge and drags actin towards the centre of the sacromere. this is called a power stroke.

hmm im thinking now, lush beaches, warm air. this is what i study.

Qing you're my sloan. thats the way its meant to be,

Things I loved about you:

The way you stared at me when I close my eyes, then you closed your eyes and I stared at you.
How perfectly your hand fit in mine.
How you seemed so strong on the outside, but I could tell you were so sweet on the inside.
The way you said I love you.
How during that first time we were alone, when we held hands and talked for hours and finally kissed after so long.
How you were so interested in my life and what I was doing.
How you remembered everything I said to you perfectly.
When you texted me randomly (as little as that may be).
When you told me I’m one of the most perfect girls you’ve ever met.
How you were too shy to hold my hand, in case I didn’t want you to.
Getting high together and making weird animal sounds.
The way you made me feel after we made out for an hour.
How you told me I looked great every time we saw each other - despite how untrue I thought it was.
How I sat on your lap when we went on the computer together, and your legs fell asleep but you didn’t care, as long as I was sitting that close to you.
How much you have passions for things.
Your laugh/smile.
How you always made fun of me - I secretly loved it What a loser you are, because I am too haha
How you admitted defeat and say sorry when I wouldn’t let you win a fight.
The way you made the butterflies in my stomach flutter every time I saw your smile. The stupid wrestling/pillow fights we have.

How much you made me love you.

today i tried. i will try harder than before. fuck em critics. thanks mum and dad for bringing me up, thank you qing for being part of this journey. it'll be good if i had the support from you guys but if i cant get it, your blessings will also do just fine.

today is the start of the next chapter in my book. its the start of independence, its the first for me. to be able to hold the decisions i have to make for the rest of my life. to be accountable and responsible for that. to give qing a good life. dad and mum, to give you both comfort, to give you both assurance that all you did to bring me up for the past 18years didnt go down the drain.

today i hold my own fate. and i will decide my destiny. my friends can judge me but i know i wasnt born to do mainstream. i'm not one that will study my ass off to get a degree, come out of army and sit in a 9-5 job earning a salary for the rest of my life.

there's just something about growing up, you'll realise that it isnt anywhere like what you imagine the world to be when you were alot younger. when i look into a kid's eye, i envy them. but its saddening as well because i think they too, will realise what a world this is what they grow up. who am i to say? obviously its purely my assumption. but i know one day i will snap, even the best breakfast in the world wont save me nor the feeling of being able to hold the power of trading 600milion a year (just met someone today) as well. id dig deeper, and maybe only to realise that my cuppa is just lying on the beach listening to cafe del mar and smoking pot all day long.

2 weeks,

woke up at 430am this morning, joined AQ, aaron and joel for a bike ride till 930am. we managed to cover 70km from woodlands- east coast park and back to woodlands. i've just found a faster way to qing's house, cycling is so much faster than the bus ride. took us only 1hour 15mins to get there. left school at 11am to qing's place to look after her cause she's down with food poisoning still. hope that crap gets outta her soon.

its gonna be a darn tough 2 weeks now leading into the exams. ive got psychology essay still yet to be completed plus revision stuff. cool yew. anw i'm saving up for something big with my mum. hopefully we'll get it by next january!.

gnna listen david guetta to start my day off tmr.

miss u alrdy qing.

i go nowhere warm

i dont care what you guys do, if your relationship is fucked then so be it. dont drag her into it,
she doesnt deserve to be the middle man and get all the sarcasm. im warning you. u hurt her, u get it.

psychology lecture tmr morning then back home for lunch with Qing. shall get an afternoon nap before heading back to sch for another night lesson. dont judge me, i love sleeping with my gf

I go nowhere high
Go nowhere warm
Until you’re by my side
Your hand in mine
And I’ve always known
You’re like a feather
You go where wind and fire melt together

edit.

dont mess with people like me. you dont know the place where i came from, what i've done, what i went through. what i'm prepared to do if need be. i will go to the ends of the world for this girl. you dont have the slightest idea of how sweet this is right now/ really, u dont know who you are dealing with. not guys like us, never with guys like us. we bring u down all the way.

welcome to da world. bjorn ruben wesley don lets be on standby.

more shit stuff happening. im disgusted by you people. maybe this world isnt the same
as what i grew up thinking it will be. a world build up on trust. fuck yeh whatever, dig this shit

its been a while since i blogged. life has been getting real busy but its still quite a challenge to manage all my time around nicely,
the past 3 weeks were great!. the sailors came over to surprise me the day before my 18th bd and it i really got a shock when i got home that night thinking that grandma injured her leg only to realise that the 8-10 of them were in my room. thanks to everyone and esp denise for planning that.

then we went on to timbre 2 saturdays ago, it was nice having everyone there and all 27 of them made it on that night! that also happened to be the first time i signed a bill. but the jaggerbombs were ridiculously expensive like 8 shots/glasses for 270bucks, overall the food there was good, we ordered something like 15 pizzas i think. headed down to sahara after everyone couldnt decide on where to go which was epic fail cos the guys were so engross in their soccer at sahara! sorry jane&claire but i guess boys will be boys haha. went into zirca rebel and luna after that, by that time i was prolly damn red im guessing, rebel was good plus the music. It was really funny watching ghandi tho, he got owned by some fella when they challenged their lightstick dancing. got out of there at 4ish, we had macs till 5 and qing and i got into a cab and went back to hilton. legs were so tired and i woke up sore having to walk to ion for breakfast.

last weekend we had the class dinner at seoul garden which was quite fail once more since everyone's not in town but it was nice seeing those faces and i really miss 4A/5A, though we didnt really study much cos of through train and stuff but the class dynamics were soo good. im in charge of organising this year's class chalet but its damn hellva job im saying;. cos you have people like mylene ong going berlin-sweden-russia in november and shuttlers going world youth and everyone else is sooo darn busy.

last night i had the pleasure of having dinner with Qing! & chloe, omg chloe is in a league of her own i tell you. she's damn funny and hyper! Ok and now i have to finish up my lunch and read the psychology notes before starting on the essay. bowling and badminton later?.

Oh yes! i've just signed up for the national mountain bike championship in 2 weeks time and Swissotel vertical marathon! im heaps excited about this 2 competitions. ( anyone knows the terrain at bukit timah nature reserve?) cos im not going there to test the conditions till the competition itself- something quite dangerous.

& also, wish me luck im sending my application to oakley for a sponsorship soon, tho im thinking the chances of as slim.
and im also gonna feature in thomson medical hospital's calender for next year cos im their BABY for the month of sept!.

Qing i miss you already and October's gnna be great! x

You’re the best thing about me

You don’t love someone because their perfect,” she says.
“You love them in spite of the fact that they’re not.

someday i will find my place, i know i will.

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Esta es la vida

fuck dat. even tho army's still 14-18months away i'm beginning
to dislike it. total waste of time. hello m i n d e f. immma do 35 chin ups for you.

and be your slackest but fittest Pes C.

had a brilliant weekend, gonna blog about it soon,

but for now im taking this monday easy way out. tmro i will start
on my psychology essay. cognitive and dynamic shitz.
i have great friends, i do. shorty wanna pop?

then in november i will buy my fixie bike. with pink rims

Love you v much, cheng <3

i might have lactic acid in my head

.am.so.tired.

beep test 10.1
counter movement 51.9cm
agility 5.25
sit ups 53
chin ups 15
push ups 52
back extension 1.15min
1km row 3.35min.

qing i love u.

early night tonight, cant wait to learn driving. and finish management plus psychology assignment.

gnna be a fucking good week, revision and a ball!

WE ARE THE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD,